I’ve started this post a number of times, mostly in my head. I’ve crumpled up those virtual pieces of paper, dumped them into the trashcan, and started over. There’s so much I want to tell you and yet the problem is… I can’t figure it out myself. I’ve avoided the computer for weeks. My head is still foggy, my schedule is still nuts, and I’m still taking on too much. When will I learn?
For now, here’s an update:
I’m reading again! I hadn’t read since March. I tried a few books but wasn’t into them and/or I didn’t have the energy for my brain to process what I was reading. That’s the biggest break I’ve taken from reading since college when I only read what was required. I finally picked up a fiction book that I’m excited to read and equally importantly, I’m making time to read.
I’m still active. HOORAY! This has been the biggest win. I’m making activity a huge priority, even above other things that would normally be at the top of my list without question. I’m playing soccer three times per week, doing personal training once per week, and walking and hiking when I can.
I’m in physical therapy. Boooooo. Increased activity has always pissed off my knees but it got really bad about two months ago so I finally went to the doctor. In addition to soccer, personal training, and walking/hiking, I also get up early two mornings per week and go to physical therapy. Part of it is easy and part of it hurts. It helps a lot but also tires out my legs. It is simultaneously working and not working which tells me we still have progress to make.
Hootie and her mom visited! They were here for about ten days and Hootie is already planning her next visit. This time is always bittersweet because we look forward to it for months, love every second of the visit, and spend time talking about the next time we’ll see each other. But the time goes so quickly and seeing her makes me miss her even more when she leaves. Ugh. We’re planning a trip to Germany and I’m pretty sure that’s going to be a rough goodbye. But why am I even thinking about that already?!
I celebrated my 29th birthday. I use the term “celebrated” very loosely. I did more freaking out than celebrating, to be honest. I might be in life-crisis mode. Send help in the form of hugs, empathy, advice, and a life coach. Please?
I saw a dietitian. This is new to my plate (ha) so I’m just getting started with “let’s eat more balanced meals” and “let’s try not to eat every sweet in sight every nite.”
I’m hiking as much as possible. I registered for an event that is almost definitely way over my head. You guys… it’s sixteen miles. I’ve never gone more than seven in my life. I don’t know exactly what I’m getting into or what the course is like. I hear it’s part-road and part-trail so John and I have been getting out as much as possible and putting in some miles. I have a soccer game the day after the event so please revisit the part where I mentioned my knees suck. And if I didn’t mention it already… I need to get my head checked.
So I’m a little busy, eh? There are more things I haven’t even mentioned. I don’t wear “busy” like a badge of honor; instead I’ve been trying to make it known that I have a few priorities right now and I’m focusing on those. That often means I ask for help, get John to take the lead on things I normally would, ask friends to be understanding, and ask around for advice.
I’m very much an open book and happy to share if someone is interested and wants to listen. You should interpret that as… it’s not that I haven’t wanted to share things around here, I just haven’t had my head in the right space to sit down and do so. There are a few things in my life that aren’t sitting right at the moment and I’m trying to figure out how to get them settled. Obviously food, my body, and my activity level are biggies.
I really want to come back into this space with you guys more often. I have very much been wanting to share everything with you. I’m not sure I’ve shared everything with anybody yet, which I understand contradicts my previous “I’m an open book!” notion, but I’m ready. I think. ha. Or maybe it’s one of those “do something before you’re ready” things.
Thank you times 3740958710643 to everyone who has emailed, texted, messaged, or thought about me and checked in to make sure I haven’t fallen off the face of the planet. I assure you I am alive and (mostly) well! Please update me in the comments on what’s been going on with you! What’s been the highlight of the last few weeks?
Let’s chat again soon :)
Now arriving at gate B3…
Hootie and her mom!!!!!!!!
My parents and I greeted them at the airport super late last nite with homemade signs, hugs, and smiles plastered on our faces.
I know these next nine days will be gone in a flash but I’m just so excited for them to be here. Shopping, talking, eating, talking, exercising, talking, more eating… it will be a damn good nine days!
I’ve been in a funk lately. A deep, lonely, lazy, confusing, questioning funk.
This being an adult thing is hard. Could someone just give me the answers please? And make sure it’s the answers I want to hear! haha :)
It’s not blogging; I actually do have lots to tell you and things I want to share! Everything just seems like an immense hurdle. I think I’ve been over-analyzing everything in my head and that’s affecting little decisions and even bigger — my priorities.
Have you ever seen the episode of Big Bang Theory where Sheldon rolls dice and lets the dice make decisions for him? I could probably implement that and feel a lot better, although I definitely can’t pull off the intelligently annoying spray of facts that come out of his mouth.
So I just wanted to pop in and say hello.
And let you know that I’m not, uh, dead or anything. Today I actually do feel better! Much more optimistic, feeling like I can tackle things again. It probably has something to do with the fact that Hootie is in the air right now. Literally. Flying! The countdown has gone from months to weeks to days and now hours. I cannot wait! Her positivity and wisdom can pull me out of any funk ever. Plus her being here means more family time which always makes me feel great!
So if you don’t hear from me for a week or two, or you hear from me sporadically (Clueless style), now you know why. It’s not my usual style but I’m choosing to prioritize and get my shizz back on track.
Growing baby maters and canteloupe but the edamame and basil sadly kicked the bucket.
Beginning the countdown to seeing Hootie… one week!
Re-reading The Giver with J-slice (his first time) and I’m loving every word just like every other time I’ve read it.
Planning fun things for the three-day weekend ahead!
Organizing my art and craft supplies – thanks to my Mom’s help – so I can actually use what I have.
Needing to get some restful sleep.
Worrying about my knees and the physical therapy required to get them back to functioning properly.
Appreciating that John and I have been able to plan together without arguing or having any miscommunication.
Envying those that have been traveling lately, yet I opted to stay home this weekend. File that under #makesnosense
Eating a crap ton of eggs in all forms recently.
Hopping back on the green smoothie train after consuming weeks of cottage cheese with fruit for breakfast.
Feeling proud of J-slice for starting 6th grade tomorrow, of John for getting a great review at work, and myself for making a few things happen for my soccer league!
What’s currently going on in your life?
PS – I know. I just squeaked this post into the 26th. It’s actually 11:30pm right now. Oops. More on-time fun to come later in the week, hopefully!
Woohoo! It’s Friday! Killing time at work till 5pm? Or want to read some fun things this weekend? Let’s wander the web together!
Before peach season ends, you better believe I’ll be making this caramelized peach, mascarpone, and dark chocolate grilled cheese. Sounds odd and also insanely delicious.
I am guilty of some common email blunders; our clients at work are generally older so I guess I get away with it. Regardless, I should probably learn how to send better email.
If you feel a little self-conscious or inferior at times, here’s how to be confident and passionate.
Ever go to write a blog post and feel like your brain is completely blank? Write about the last thing you learned.
Summer and Fall to me speak “s’mores everything!” Let’s s’more up some cookies with this s’mores chocolate chip cookie cake.
I love love love this concept of earning your sleep by doing something you’re proud of and being the best you that you can be.
I’m considering creating a 30 Before 30 list and for each item on it, I will be asking myself these questions.
Have you been wandering the web too? Got something to share? Link to it in the comments!
Students are heading back to school this week and next week which marks the unofficial end of summer. I figured I should do a wrap-up post from our summer vacation to North Carolina before it doesn’t feel like summer anymore! I have a random smattering of photos I want to share with you!
We got in lots of quality time with John’s three nieces and nephew, as well as with his brother and sister-in-law.
The two oldest girls and I baked a cake together. I almost typed “cookies” because we always bake cookies… but not this time. They cleaned up in their signature classy style of bowl-licking.
The cake was for J-slice’s birthday. He turned 12 shortly after our trip but we wanted to celebrate with the family. Plus, umm, any reason for sprinkles, right?!
major slight argument and begging on my part, we spent a large chunk of a day at Carowinds amusement park. You know how much I love rollercoasters!
The Carowinds property crosses into South Carolina so there are several areas where you are crossing between the two states. Or in the boys’ case, you can straddle the border.
Letting his nerd side show, John wanted a picture with Dale Earnhardt. I’m not sure that’s a blog-worthy highlight but John looks darn handsome here so I’ll let it slide. To each his own.
Short and sweet! Just wanted to wrap up sharing our vacation with you guys. It’s been on my to-do list forever so I can finally check it off. Best feeling ever!
I have a friend (who’s reading right now, probably!) who didn’t take a summer vacation. Whaaaaaat?! Crazytown. The only excuse I will accept if you’re in the same boat is that you spent all of your vacation days on skiing.
So tell me about your summer vacay! Are you a relaxer or an adventurer? Do you like to stay near or go far? Do you save up for nine months or just wing it and pay for it after the fact?
I’m kind of a serious person. Anyone who knows me well would tell you that. I don’t drink, dance, sing karaoke, get loud, or anything like that.
My brand of fun is more like adventure, travel, exploring, trying new things. My fun looks like ziplining in Montana:
And snowboarding in France:
And wakeboarding in Georgia:
Three different people told me recently that I need to have more fun. Enjoy life! Live it up! Don’t take things so seriously!
How the heck do I do that???
Seriously, I need your help: how do you have fun? What do you enjoy? It could be a daily activity, an annual trip, or a once-every-ten-years sort of thing. All of those, actually. I need ideas that cover everything! The only ideas I have right now are travel and active-related.
Is it sad that I need help having fun? Yes I think so. Pathetic. So look at my plea for help as your chance to significantly improve my life! Thank you!